BBC环球慢速英语 第153期:尼克·武伊契奇(4)

There were times when I felt depressed and angry - because I could not change the way I was. And I had no one to blame. I went to Sunday school, at the church. I learned that God loves us all and cares. And I understood that love to a point. But I did not understand why God had made me like this - if he loved me. (I asked), 'Did I do something wrong?' I thought I must have. I was the only 'strange' one at school. I wanted to end my pain. I wanted to end my life at a young age. But I am thankful once again to my parents and family. They were always there to make me stronger.
有时我会因为无法改变自己的样貌而感到压抑和气愤。而且我不能责怪任何人。我去了教堂的主日学校。我在那里学到，上帝爱我们所有的人，也关心我们所有人。在一定程度上，我理解了这份爱。可是我不明白的是，既然上帝爱我，那他为什么把我塑造成这样。我想问，‘我做错了什么事吗？’我想我一定是做错了事。我是学校里唯一的“怪物”。我想结束我的痛苦。我小时候曾想结束自己的生命。但是，我要再一次感谢我的父母和家人。他们一直在我身边，让我变得更坚强。