Under The Guise of Care and Concern

These words came up powerfully for me these past few months. I have had the experience this year of being in several situations in which people's genuineness and motives came into question over and over again. Have you ever met the type I am referring to? People who are correcting you because they care? People who are sharing with you for your own good and growth? People who show you every mistake and dark nook and cranny of your soul because they want to see you live a life of freedom, prosperity and possibilities?

So why is it then that you continually feel shamed, blamed, made wrong and angered by these people who are there to love, support and guide you?

How wonderful it is to have such loving and giving people in your corner ready and willing to have control (ooops, I mean "offer support") over your life. Yes control, because the people I am referring to are the ones that no matter what you do; they always have more "loving feedback" to throw your way--whether it solicited or not. Feedback(criticism is more the word) where you are left feeling off-balance, unsure of yourself and even guilty and ashamed of what you have been thinking or doing. You can not live up to "their" always changing expectations and if you stand up for yourself or challenge them, you are informed that you are not willing to listen, you have issues which do not allow you to hear the truth, you do not love them back, or you are making them wrong.

Do you ever find yourself putting off conversations because you are sure they will leave you exhausted, confused and feeling run-over? Conversations that your friend, coach, spouse, family member, recovery sponsor, clergy or boss will have with you for your own good and it's only because they "care?"

These people make me angry at the way they operate. I call them predators?praying on the energy, pain and complete trust of others. Some predators are so good at it that they convince themselves they are operating only for the betterment of man or womankind. Sounds pretty cultish to me. I feel for these people because they are remarkably powerful and if they could only do the work they "lovingly" impose on others, they would not be the threat that they are to ignorant, helpless people seeking a better way of life. These predators are unhealed power and very formidable. For these past few months, I repeatedly hear in my head "beware false prophets" and I believe in my heart not all predators know they are preying.

Here is what I feel is really going on here:

"Because I love you and care about you, I will pick apart every word, thought and action you have so that I can covertly insert what my will for you is and, if you start to see what I am doing, then I will tear you down and rebuild you so that you are dependant upon me and then remind you I am the one who really understands and hears you. I hear your pain and am willing to go there with you because I am committed to you. I will let you know and share with you how grateful I am that you have allowed me to teach you what real love, support and caring are, because I know you have never had anyone say these things to you and you will become addicted to my acknowledgment and appreciation of you. I am really a fearful person who needs others to need me so that I feel whole and complete. I can teach you everything you need to know to be happy, successful and fulfilled. Please know I love and care about you. I may sound angry and dominating or I may sound gentle and soft. Either way, the truth is, I am out for myself even if I know it or not."

In several of the communities I have been involved with over the years, I have seen this pattern/hunt many times and of course, for me it began at Home, in childhood. Today, I have tools that these predators cannot operate with. Today I have the right to say:

"I have not asked for your input around this topic - thanks anyway."

"I do not like the way I feel after we talk about me, therefore I will find other support."

"No, I simply do not agree with you; I am not saying you are wrong."

"I have not asked for your input. When I would like it I will request it."

"This relationship is not one I would like to continue. Thank you for your time."

"I feel what you are seeing and pointing out is your own unheal