全职爸爸的自白

My husband, Clay, does the laundry. He also cooks a mean dinner and manages our 7-year-old's schedule with the seamless precision of the Blue Angels.
我丈夫克莱(Clay)负责洗衣服。他晚餐做得也不赖，另外，他还负责安排我们七岁女儿的日程表，精准度甚至可以媲美“蓝天使”特技飞行队(Blue Angels)。

Clay loves what he does, and he's proud that he does it all so well. But, he also concedes, it comes with a price.
克莱喜欢他现在所做的事情，并且对自己能够这么胜任颇感自豪。但是，他也承认，为此他付出了一些代价。

Clay resents the perception that some people (including some readers) have that he is henpecked, or that he doesn't contribute enough to the family. He has at times felt isolated among stay-at-home moms, or shunned by the dads who find his situation odd, or threatening.
克莱非常反感一些人（包括一些读者）把他看作“妻管严”，或认为他没有为家庭做出足够的贡献。在全职妈妈们的圈子里，他时常会感到孤单，他还会被那些认为他的家庭角色尴尬或具有威胁性的爸爸们拒之千里。

Amid all the talk of women "leaning in" to their careers, Clay says that he would like to hear more stories about men who are leaning into their families, as he did after shutting down his contracting business when the housing market collapsed nearly three years ago.
有关女性“投身于”事业的讨论称得上铺天盖地，克莱说，他希望看到更多讲述男性献身家庭的故事。差不多三年前，在房地产市场暴跌后，克莱关闭了自己日益不景气的公司。此后，他便承担起照顾家庭的重任。

So for Clay, this is one of those stories.
因此，对克莱来说，他的故事便是一个这样的故事。

Clay never anticipated being a stay-at-home father. Seeing his business succumb despite his best efforts to keep it going was sad and stressful for both of us.
克莱从未想过自己会成为一名全职爸爸。尽管他使出了浑身解数，但仍未能保住自己的公司，这对我们两个人来说都是既伤感又沉重的一件事情。

But when I was offered a promotion, he encouraged me to take it, even though it involved frequent travel and would require him to become a full-time parent. Our daughter was 4 years old at the time, and he felt he could do the greatest good for the family by being there for her—and for me.
但是，当我得到了一次升迁机会的时候，他却鼓励我接受这个机会，尽管新岗位需要频繁出差，而这要求他不得不成为全职爸爸。我们的女儿那时候四岁，克莱觉得最有利于这个家庭的选择就是陪伴在她身边──也陪伴在我身边。

Although society has progressed in its acceptance of stay-at-home fathers, Clay feels that outside of larger urban areas, including in parts of our small town, traditional attitudes remain more entrenched.
尽管社会在接纳全职爸爸方面已经取得了一些进步，但是克莱感觉到，在大城市以外，包括我们所居住的小镇上的某些地方，传统观念仍然根深蒂固。

"My pat reply to 'What do you do?' is that 'Laura earns our income and I try to do most everything else, ' "he says. "Sometimes, depending on who's listening, the 'everything else' feels weak."
克莱说，“对于别人‘你现在做什么工作？’的问题，我总是熟练地回答‘劳拉(Laura)负责赚钱，而我则尽量去完成大多数剩下的事情。有的时候，取决于聆听对象，‘剩下的事情’听起来苍白无力。”

Early on, he felt isolated as most of the other parents he would meet in preschool were women. If he wanted to set up a play date with another child, he would give the mother his email address and phone number, but felt odd asking for contact details in return, as he didn't want her to think he was hitting on her.
克莱在女儿的学前班遇到的大多数家长都是妈妈们，因此在开始的时候，他感到有点孤单。如果他想帮女儿和另一个小朋友安排个一起玩耍的时间，他就得给这个小朋友的妈妈留下自己的邮箱地址和电话号码；但他觉得如果是反过来向她要联系方式就有点奇怪，因为他不想让她产生自己在向她示好的误解。

He was also careful about where play dates would occur, especially after an unpleasant experience at the house of one of our daughter's classmates. When the child's father came home unexpectedly, the mood suddenly turned tense, even though my husband was just sitting while the kids played in front of them.
克莱对于约定女儿和小朋友玩耍的地点也很谨慎，特别是有次他在女儿的一个同学家有过不愉快的经历之后。那天，当这位同学的爸爸意外提早回家时，气氛顿时变得紧张起来，尽管我丈夫只是坐在那儿看孩子们在大人们面前玩耍而已。

"Perhaps he was just having a rough day, but I would never have greeted a guest in my home with the cold surprise that he greeted me with, " Clay says. "It's a standout memory, but not in a good way."
克莱说，“可能是他那天过得很糟糕吧，但是我无论如何也不会在自己家里像他那样用冷漠不解的眼神来问候客人。那是一次让人难以忘怀的回忆，不过并不是什么美好的回忆。”