当我寻觅真爱

I was 14 when I had my first boyfriend.
拥有第一个男朋友的时候，我14岁。

I had a crush on him first and he happened to know that at one point so we went to a carnival together during the town fiesta.
是我先对他产生了好感，而他似乎看穿了我的心思。有一次镇上举行嘉年华庆典，我们就约着一起去庆典上玩。

He talked the whole night about anything and almost everything that he could think of.
那天整晚他都在天南地北的夸夸其谈，想到什么就说什么。

It was a quick action yet he asked me the second night if I could be his girl.
令我意想不到的是，第二天晚上，他就问我愿不愿意做他的女朋友。

At a young age, so innocent and not understanding what love really is, I was hesitant and said no.
那时我还如此年轻，如此单纯，不明白爱的真正含义，我很犹豫，拒绝了他。

He was persistent telling me that my mom wont know and we will be far from each other anyway.
他却很坚持，他说我的妈妈不会知道的，反正很快我们就会离得远远的了。

So before we parted, I said yes. I enjoyed every journey of our relationship but sadly it ended before we can even reach our first year anniversary.
所以，在我们告别之前，我答应了他。每次和他约会我都很开心。遗憾的是，还不到第一个周年纪念日，我们的关系就结束了。

After that, it seemed like the search for that someone never ended.
在那之后，我似乎一直在茫茫然的寻找某个人。

I don't know what was missing or what was I exactly looking for.
我觉得自己心里缺了一块，却不知道缺的是什么。我也不知道自己到底在寻找什么。
 
It was 2010 when I had the opportunity to work in Singapore as a patient care assistant though I'm a nurse by profession.
2010年的时候，我获得一份远在新加坡的工作机会，职位是病人护工助理。其实我的本行是一名护士。不过我还是接受了这个职位。

My life there were not just about work because I was able to experience and receive the tangible presence of Nature most of my days as well.
不过我在那里的生活也不光全是工作，我还有许多时间去感受大自然，并且体验到了大自然存在的真实感。

What I realized is that all this time, Nature is the only One who can fill this emptiness inside me.
我最终意识到，一直以来，大自然都是唯一能填平我心里的空洞的存在。

You are worthy. You are loved. You have an inner joy and peace.
只有置身于大自然中，你才会感到你的价值，感到自己被爱着，感到内心充满喜悦与平静。

Just open your heart and receive the voices of nature. She is kind to the broken-hearted.
打开心扉，聆听大自然的声音吧！她会对心碎的人敞开怀抱。

Nature is our ONE TRUE LOVE. Choose to love Her first before you love others. :)
大自然应该是我们唯一的真爱。在你爱其他人之前，先去爱她吧！